Post by KeCo on Jan 30, 2013 17:15:24 GMT -6
The Many Faces of Him
1) i'll explain the dreams later but this has been happening recently where i dream about this boy with black shaggy hair and pale white skin. His eyes are so dark and serious. His mouth is wonderful in a way that makes my heart tug...He's is very expressive with his eyes and mouth. My goodness he is very handsome! He likes to show up in my dreams in different outfits which always ends up being better then what he wore last time!I feel like i'm in love with him and other times it's like i don't want him near me. I must have a very conflicted relationship with him. I think I'll just call him the trickster.
Trickster gets Jealous
2) I'm looking at this girl and i know that's me but it doesn't look like me at all. I have big round glasses and pigtails. I'm wearing suspenders and rainbow colored stockings. I have some seriously torn up sneakers on. I look crazy but i'm loving it. Trickster shows up and starts picking on me. He's walking around in a kimono with swords strapped to his sides. He's smirking at me and acting all cocky. Anyway! we are in this garden and we get into this heated fight and i yell out "transform!" *Strike a pose* and i'm inside this giant gundam. I start striking more poses and he looks so jealous! My ego was so high right then! Then a teacher with a group of kids show up and she starts to tell him how he should be more like me and how great my gundam looks...i'm totally rubbing it in his face. Great dream-Too much anime!
Trickster pushes me
3) I'm standing in front of this little shack on a pier. It looks like we are surrounded by a big pond. I walk fora bit on the pier then stop. I see my sister in law standing at the edge talking to someone. This form half emerges out of the dark water with its arm reaching toward her. As she lifts her arm, I start feeling panic. I started running to her and i see she is about to hop into the water. I get to her just in time and pull her back but as this happens i feel a set of hands from behind push me. I half turn in the air and i see only trickster standing there, waving, with this dump eating grin on his face. I plunge into the water and float just underneath the surface. The scene starts to get darker as i watch myself banging my fists into the surface but i can't break through. Once the scene totally goes black i find myself just walking under water. My black hair is long and floating everywhere as i move my head around. I see a park under the water. It's very old and covered in moss. Little purple fish are swimming around this bench and i take a seat there. Somehow all of a sudden i'm in this rice paddy field. Its extremely beautiful! It's so bright and sunny out! The sky is a beautiful cloudless blue and the green is so vivid. I look at the bench and it looks like it's new. I don't move from my spot at all, i just sit and look at everything. At the top of a hill i see a little oriental style building. Next to it i see trickster start to walk towards me but he stops halfway down the hill and looks into the water next to him. Now i'm looking up at him and i realize i'm under the water, still in sitting in the rusty moss covered bench. He stands there and stares at me with this look that i can't describe. I reach up and am able to push my fingers through the water. He pulls me out and we go sit on the bench that was at the bottom of the hill. By this time it's late in the evening and there are fireflies glowing around our bench. He takes my hand in his but we don't say a word. That night when i woke up i realized i had been crying in my sleep.
Trickster loves me
4) I think i'm in Hell. I always thought hell would have tons of fire and blood everywhere. It just looked like a desert with the sky being almost a red hue. The air was dry and warm. The sand isn't hot just warm and big rocks scattered about. Off in the distance i see this tall black castle...it looks like there are spikes coming out of the building. I start running there. Once i get to the front of the castle the doors open and i'm let right in. There are these monsters everywhere! They look like they are just lounging around. They stare but make no move to come after me. I start walking to this stair case at the back of the room. I'm walking for so long by the time i get to the top i just sit there fora while. After i rest i start walking into another room but it's empty. I see another set of steps and i start walking again. This happens for quite some time. Finally i make it to the top! I open the doors and i see a group of men and creatures on either side of this throne. On the throne there is this man with long white hair and pale skin. He is beautiful! His eyes are half closed and are a reddish color. His limbs are long but you can tell he's very graceful. He lifts his arms and beckons me with his finger. I stand in front of him and i look to my left and i see trickster standing there! He looks so regal! I can't even begin to describe what he is wearing...it's so complicated looking! I think he's trying not to pay attention to me but his eyes look fierce and almost worried. I look back at the man in front of me and he's just smiling. I'm starting to get scared. He stands up, he is so tall! He walks to me and stands directly in front of me. He takes my hand and runs it in my hair. He does this for a bit...then he starts to speak to me but i can't understand a word he's saying. I look at him so confused and he sighs. He starts talking to the creatures around him and they all start to walk out of the room. I look over to trickster but he has his back to me and just leaves the room. I sit on the floor and start crying because i don't know what to do. The room goes black and i start to lose it. I'm crying so hard now that i can't breathe...then i feel a set of arms cradle me. He lifts me into his lap and starts to mutter words i can't understand. I realize he's trying to comfort me and i slowly stop crying. When i look behind me, i see him lean into me and kiss me. I lean my head against his as he still mutters these strange words. I wrap my arms around him and he wraps his around me. I lay my head against his chest and we stay like that for some time. I look back at his face and he gives me this look...gentle and loving. I kiss him one more time and i wake up. I've noticed that when i dream about him most times i wake up crying.
Trickster tries to hide me
5) We are being chased! Trickster is running ahead of me yelling. I slow down but he grabs my hand and pulls me to make run harder. We are in the woods. We trip and stumble but he keeps a hold of me. I'm crying for him to just let me go and run but he won't. We run into this clearing with this big oriental building. There is a old grandma sitting in front of a set of doors. Trickster starts talking to her. She says something to him and he looks back at me worried. We hear shouting and he kisses me. He says he will be back but i beg him not to go. The old grandma opens the door and he takes me inside. He hugs my back to his chest. I turn around and watch him run away. The old grandma shuts the door and opens a door on the floor. She starts motioning for me to go in and i peer inside. I feel her shove me and i fall inside. I hit the ground on my back and i look up to her laughing and shutting the door. There is no light and i can barely move. I can hear shuffling going on upstairs and the door opens again. It was a trap! I start trying to pull myself away with my arms. The men jump down one by one. The circle around me as i lay there crying. They are laughing cruelly and start to remove my clothes. They raped me. As i lay there broken, the door above snaps shut. I hear the old grandma laughing again and the men start screaming. I roll onto my side and see these creatures come out of the dark. They are almost a silver color and they had no features. They had human shaped forms but they moved around on their bellies. Once they were close enough to the men they whipped there limbs around like they were rubber. They took the men down and started to devour them. I crawled as far as i could get. I watched them being ate and when the monsters were done they slowly moved towards me. I screamed for trickster but he never came back and i died.
I am becoming a mermaid as well 